Break time. I walked across the lab where I was interning at
and sat down at the empty desk. Everyone else seemed to be busy – doing
experiments, research, or some other thing in their area of expertise, be it
cancer or another disease. Bringing myself back to my own matters, I rummaged
through the things in my backpack. Ah, forgot to bring that textbook again. Oh
well, there are other things to do, I thought to myself as I pulled out the
multi-paged scientific paper. Just then, I caught a glimpse of my Bible. “Read
today’s Bible reading,” I heard the still small voice say. “No!” I retorted.
“That would be embarrassing!”
And so the argument began. The still small voice didn’t seem
to say anything, or rather, I didn’t want it to say anything, so I quickly continued.
“Look, all, or almost all of the people in this lab are very academic, and I
think that they would think I’m incredibly stupid and dumb to be reading out of
a Bible, when I could be reading out
of this nice, very intelligent looking scientific article! Reading the article
would also make me look smart. And besides, the professor might walk in and he
will see me, and what will he think?
I might get persecuted for this, or worse, bring persecution to others!”
The still small voice picked up again. “Doesn’t the Bible
say to rejoice if you’re persecuted for Jesus’ sake? If that happens, wouldn’t
you consider it an honor?”
“Ok, so, fine! I’ll read it then.” I let out a sigh of
near-despair. Why did that still small voice have to tell me what to do? I mean,
I was thankful for it, but to obey it in reality was difficult. But in truth, I
had already been convicted even while I was fuming over these thoughts.
But for now, let’s just read today’s passage and get this
over with as quickly as possible. I flipped the unmistakable, well worn, black
hardcover book to Mark 5-8 and started scanning the pages. Jesus raises Jairus’
daughter to life. Jesus makes the deaf to hear and the mute to speak. Jesus
feeds the multitudes. “Yes, yes, yes,” I thought to myself, “these well-read
stories are all good.” I was about to close my Bible as I read the last verse:
“Whosoever therefore shall be ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous
and sinful generation; of him also shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he
cometh in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.”
I was stunned. I read
it again. Every word stabbed me to the heart. The word of God is a two-edged
sword and I experienced that right then. This had to be written just for me.
“Jesus forgive me! I was so wrong. Forgive me for being ashamed of You. Help me
to be unashamed of You and Your words.”
I was awed. By the message Jesus gave me. And by the fact
that He cared so much about me that He moved heaven and earth to give me that
message. He moved heaven – He “breathed” out these words into my Bible, had the
Holy Spirit talk to such a rebellious stubborn knucklehead as me, made me read
just that verse that day, that hour. He moved earth – He placed me in that
predominantly non-Christian lab, allowed me to have that Bible in my backpack,
gave me the ability to read. He loves me. And my prayer is that I will be
unashamed of Him, to the end.
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